1-5-09 Thee Beggining Of Thee End;

-Standing Alone This Year;

So tonite is pretty much changing everything about everything i once knew.

I'm not sure if this is thee way to go about the recents stressor that have been killing my life ever do dreadfully,

but i'll go out on a limb.

For the past month or so ive been a complete wreck, emotional, sensitive,

insecure, full of anger and other feelings that ive yet to be able to put into words.

ive pretty much been indifferent.

I thought i had a plan of how and WITH WHOM i wanted to live my life,

but now more and more i sit to myself and think and KNOW deep down inside i truly deserve better.

It's sad when youre 16 years old and feel like your life is over when in all reality the world,

and every opportunity is sitting at your feet, just waiting to be concurred.

it's sorta insane how i let a guy interupt my social living, but it's end tonight.

From today on i made a promise to love myself more,

to appreciate and accept all the good and bad qualities ive been blessed with.

I promise myself to be strong enough to over-look all of the foolish choices ive made in the past;

and not forget them, just use them as a lesson learned,

and a stepping stone to what i want to get to in my future and present.

I promise myself to never let ANYONE (cough cough ex-boyfriend) continuously hurt me time and time again,

I promise myself to not settle for 2nd best but to keep striving until im completely happy with first place.

I promise myself to never neglect the ones who truly and unconditionally love me (or so i thought) for who i am & not who they want me to be.

I promise to never down my pride to satisfy a NIGGA!

I'm Loving myself from now on,

and I think it's best if i just focused on MY LUKEYY and I from now on :]

oh yeah,

and no more bby ideas,

i was blinded by love yet again,

but someone tlked some sense into me :]



Living My Life :]