1-20-09 GoodBye Sadness.

it's final, thee ex && i are officially donee;
im not sad or anythinq,
im entirely happy with what i have,
it's jst about time.
it's a shame how lonq it took me to realize that is was time for me to qo.
thee constant arquinq, thee heartachee,
i dnt have time for that kind of bussiness this year.
i dnt feel anythinq for him anymore,
i mean yeah i still have mad love,
but it'll never come in between what i have now.
i realized, all he wnted was a chase,
and to see my stressing over him,
but it's not my place to give him what he wnts anymore.
thats for his new grl.
idk why i let that bother me before when i have always had my lukey by my side,
since thee ninth qrade,
someone who truely loves me && is not afraid to show it.
i've developed a new type of love for him.
we've been apart for three months,
and i've been faithful,
and thee thouqht to leave his side never crossed my mind.
i really love him alot,
and appreciate him wayyyy more then before.
my life seems so diff. now,
a sad day or memory,
has yet to come, now thats he's come into my life.
he qenuinely makes me happy.
he has yet to hurt me like thee other quyss have in thee past,
but i doubt hurtinq me would ever cross his mind.
he never let's a moment past without letting me know how much he loves && misses me.
this relationship is different from thee rest,
really, fcuk thee rest,
in all the others,
i was always beinq hurt,
while i was doinq my part thee wholetime.
but now,
its jst so different,
im so happy with him.
lol at this rate he's qoinq to have my children,
&& im qoinq to take his hand in marriaqe.
he makes my heart skip a beat,
idk what to say, really, he knocks me riqht off of my feet,
and leaves me speechless.
idk what his love does to me,
but it's a feelinq i wnt to stay.
it's kind of hard to explain,
how i feel about him,
lovee is truely beinq qood to me, this time around.
im qlad he's mine.
i cnt wait until he comes home.
i think that will be thee happiest day of my life thus far.
im so in lovee <345.
¤Bellaqueo.